Amazed

Well, little one, the Lord gave us quite a surprise today.

Mommy lay on the ultrasound table for a very long time, while the ultrasound technician looked and scanned and searched. I could tell she wasn't seeing what she was looking for, and so I prayed that God would give me the strength I needed to hear the news that you were gone. I sang your special hymn in my heart, and thought about the perfect peace that Jesus gives us. I thought about how good He is, even when He brings things into our lives that don't seem good.

Then, the ultrasound tech called someone else into the room. They stared at the screen, and pointed, and whispered. Your poor mommy was going crazy, not knowing what they were talking about. Then... "Look! There!", one of them whispered. My heart pounded as she finally turned to me and, smiling, said, "This baby's giving me a workout today!" She moved the screen so I could see, and she showed me you... and your little flickering heartbeat. I couldn't believe my eyes!

Your heart is beating a little bit faster than it was last week. That is an encouragement. But you haven't grown a bit; you're still measuring at a 6-week size, and you ought to be over 8 weeks by now. But the fact that your heart is still beating, and even beating a little bit faster, in spite of the fact that you haven't grown, is amazing to us.

We know the doctors will still say that you are slipping away, that you won't be with us much longer. But we know God, and He can do some pretty amazing things. And so, precious one, we are going to pray with renewed vigor that God will do something unbelievable for you... something that will amaze all of us and make the doctors speechless.

We'll peek in on you again next Monday, but in the meantime, we'll keep praying.

We love you... so much.

Daddy and Mommy